Stumbling In
(with apologies to Suzi Quatro and Chris Norman)
The year was 1978 and Suzi Quatro and Chris Norman released a song called Stumbling In.
As a healthy adolescent of 18 years old, I used to think Suzi was it and a bit and a whole lot more, particularly because my mum was not exactly enraptured with this tightly-clad rock star. Somehow this made Suzi all the more appealing.
The lyrics of this song are about a young couple in a blossoming new relationship, stumbling along some of the joys and trickiness of the road that many of us have travelled. It seems that on the path of love, relationships and discipleship, there are not only roses, champagne and fluttering eyelids, but there are also things that trip us up. These send us unexpectedly stumbling into the dust.
We ought not to be surprised that sometimes these falls are self-induced. Other times, sadly, we can cause others to stumble. We then discover that the millstone of regret and guilt that our Lord refers to is heavy indeed.
In today’s gospel, it is the disciple John who stumbles. Listen carefully as he goes whinging to Jesus about an unnamed exorcist.
‘Teacher, we saw someone casting out demons in your name, and we tried to stop him because he was not following us.’
We don’t know a lot about this unnamed exorcist but there are some things we can be sure of.
- He had heard about Jesus.
- He knew the authority of Jesus' name.
- He was kicking a few goals and accomplishing some successful exorcisms.
In his attitude and complaint, John stumbles because of his own envy.
I speculate that John might have had a few goes at doing the odd exorcism himself, and failed, and so when he sees an outsider having a few wins his blood pressure meds are upped. John, possibly egged on by the other disciples, considers the unnamed disciple’s success through a lens of jealousy and insecurity – him succeeding where they had failed and so fear how it might affect their position in the ‘Jesus clique’.
The unnamed exorcist who gets an A in his class, Deliverance 101, is at the top of his game because he knows it is not about himself. It has never been about himself. He always just rejoiced in the marvellous and exciting fact that the real authority lies somewhere else or rather, in someone else.
And there is a great lesson here for clergy and laity not to go into ‘competition mode’. Rather we should exalt and dance and delight in the generous gifts that God has given to others. Everyone has marvellous gifts and when you use them to God’s glory then anything and everything is possible. Even the banishment of evil and the replacement of ceiling panels that are 14 meters from the floor, is not too much of an ask.
And far from stumbling and spiralling downwards in a bottomless rush of envy and grumpiness, we ought to congratulate and enthuse and gush about the fantastic things we see going on around us.
And it doesn’t take much.
“Whoever gives you a cup of water to drink because you bear the name of Christ will by no means lose the reward.”
A very basic and selfless act of discipleship is always of infinite value. It is especially admirable when it is offered to a little one who is not necessarily junior in Earth years but is still being formed in the way of discipleship, which is pretty much all of us. You do this ministry frequently, lovingly, selflessly and with great joy.
And when you exercise this ministry you are demonstrating your understanding that it is not just about you. That there is someone else who needs ministry. You understand where the desire to serve another comes from and what must be done.
When you do this you make yourself vulnerable. This really is stumbling forward on the road we call discipleship. Heading towards our new Jerusalem in vulnerability is a risky, risky pilgrimage of vulnerability.
My idol Suzi Quatro together with her colleague Chris Norman put it this way.
“Our love is alive, and so we begin
Foolishly laying our hearts on the table
Stumblin' in
Our love is a flame, burning within
Now and then firelight will catch us
Stumblin' in”
In his supreme act of love, at the end of His walk to Jerusalem having fallen no less than three times on the Rocky Road, when the Master opens wide his arms on the cross, the flame of his love burns more brightly, more ardently and more warmly than ever before, because of his helplessness on the cross and at the table.
This is my body … Suzi would be askance at my twisting of the lyrics, but for me at least, in the upper room, on the night before the Master dies, he does lay his heart on the table, because lays himself on the table. This is my body, this is my blood.
So together, we stagger and totter, always stumbling forward, always with Him. When we are flattened by our failures and disappointments. Then we pick ourselves up, dust ourselves off, for our love is alive, His love is alive and so again we begin.
Foolishly laying our hearts on the table and stumbling in, Stumbling in, ultimately, to heaven itself.